Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008 is history

(This entry was actually written in 2008, tapi sebab internet down, 2009 baru la dapat post)
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Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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This would be my third attempt to post an entry today. It's not the network, it's me. I do have ideas and points, but it just keeps on circling in my head and refused to be elaborated. I'm drained.
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So I'm going to just write about the obvious. Bye-bye 2008, Welcome 2009.
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2008, personally, I feel that it went too slowly for the country. I think the country is plagued with too many controversies which are yet to be solved. No thanks to our self centered 'Ahli-Ahli Yang Berhormat'. I am sometimes saddened that we as voters were forced to vote when there were actually no candidates worthy of being the Yang Berhormat. One candidate is a thief and the other is a racist. Ditelan mati emak, diluah mati bapak.
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How could this be? Are we so pathetic that we are deprived from having good leaders among us? I suspect that good leaders do exist, but they don't want to surface just yet. They are still hiding in their places of zen and just waiting for the right time to save this country from bigots, racists, thieves, hypocrites etc..etc. However this is just my wishful thinking, I know....
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We need leaders with testicular fortitude (aku pinjam word ni dari blog Demi Negara). Leaders who are also patriots, who would die for this country, who would spend all of their energies to ensure the sons and daughters of Malaysia inherit a strong and united nation. A nation that is feared and yet respected by others. Can we really have these kind of leaders? Only time will tell. So enough about politics.
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On a more personal note, I feel that 2008 is fairly a good year for me and my family. We finally moved to our own house, my wife got a hefty increment and a big fat bonus too. Me myself got an unexpected promotion. Alhamdulillah. And to forget we also got a new family member. Akif is nearly one year old. Time flies huh?
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So now 2009 is here. I embrace the dawn of 2009 with caution. You know la with the prediction of financial tsunami coming. We need to be prepared. Maybe in 2009, I'll be thrifty and prudent. eheheh....Hopefully, if the forecast is true, it'll not be as bad as 97/98. Insya allah....
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Ok people. Have a great year. Keep in touch!!!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

31 dah aku



Last Friday I turned 31 year old. This year I was calmer compared to last year. Last year I was a little depressed being 30 and all. But this year, everything seems to be suprisingly exciting. I dont feel I'm old at all. ahahahha.....

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank all my frens for all the birthday wishes. I was suprised by the amount of wishes I received. I'm blessed with a lot of nice frens. Thanks you guys. Happy New Year 1430H!!!!

Friday, December 19, 2008

French Connection

I have always wanted to go to France. I'm captivated by its reputation as romantic & old city. But to visit France, it'll cost me a fortune. I might have to sell my car :) Because of that and also with the spirit of cuti-cuti Malaysia, my family & I went to Bukit Tinggi instead. I LOVED IT!!!
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Since story telling is not really my forte, I'll let the pictures to tell the story. But to those who haven't got the chance to go, you better go. To me it's worth it.

at main gate

family pic

akif & me
akif's amazing panda advanture
fire dancers, the one on the left actually eats fire....tu yg alif takut tu
fire dancers in action
dinner at La Flamme
alif & me
mat rempit
at japanese garden
minat rempit
lumut at japenese garden, cam carpet kan
bus ride
in front of the Chatteu
santa's latest elf
at Colmar Tropicale, based on the exact village of Colmar in France
takde apa ni, saje snap this pic coz I nampak cantik je susunan makanan tu :)

5 years


Today is my wedding anniversary!!!
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It has been 5 wonderful years. Although there were hiccups here and there, I guess it was normal. Some people say, if your marriage survives the first 5 years, then it will last till death do you apart. Hopefully it's true, Insya Allah.
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I'd like to thank God for the happiness that I'm enjoying right now. Alhamdulillah!
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I'd like to thank my wife for all the sacrifices she had endured all these years.
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Thank you mama.
Thank you for Alif & Akif.
Thank you for believing that I was sound asleep when alif/akif ask for milk in the middle of the night
Thank you for waking me up in the morning.
Thank you for taking care of the kids when I'm out lepaking.
Thank you for letting me hog the TV.
etc...etc...etc
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Thank You for everything lah :)
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But I still blame you for the weight I've gained though :P
Love you always. Hope you'll like the flowers :)

Friday, December 12, 2008

Rojak Post

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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The JPA has announced that they feel that by giving government servants 30 days annual leave, it will affect the productivity of the service. Thus, it has been decided that government servants will be cut their annual leave entitlement from 30 to 25 days. However, this only applies to new recruits, the existing one could choose whether to accept the decison or not.
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Hmmm....I think it doesn't sound right. If you want people to produce more, why must you cut down their perks? I thought it's supposed to be a 'carrot & stick' concept. You perform, you'll be rewarded, you fail to perform, punishment awaits.
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I think most gomen servants wouldn't mind the cut. At least I don't. I never used my leave more than 10 days a year. So not a problem. It just that the reason - to improve productivity doesn't justify the action. Lagipon, it will affect our GCR. It will take us longer time to accumulate the maximum 120 days for GCR. Betul tak?
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So korang pikir-pikir la dulu sebelum terima skim baru ni. Frankly, aku rasa it wont affect much. Especially those who are still young cam aku....ahahhaha....
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Some news on Bukit Antarabangsa. Some of the S&R personnel refused to help the victims. They were frusrated that the residents accused them of looting.
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Hmmm....aku pon rasa kekadang the victims pon melampau. Orang dah tolong tu, appreciate la sikit. Kalo ada bukti takpe la. Bukan semua orang jahat wei. Aku paham la yang korang tengah tension & risau. Cuba la control sket emosi tu. Ni elok-elok orang nak tolong, dah jadi kecik hati la plak... sapa yang susah skang ni? Korang jugak kan....
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Askar, Polis, Rela, Bomba semua tu pon manusia. Diorang pon tau penat. Diorang pon ada hati, ada perasaan. So cut them some slack la. Same goes to the abang-abang polis, bomba, askar & rela. Mangsa pon tengah tensen tuuu....layan je la. Kalo kita tak buat (looting) apa nak takut.
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Kekadang aku rasa sebab diorang ni suma jenis orang-orang kaya, mungkin sebab tu kot diorang ni demanding sket. Nak itu la nak ini la. Orang tak pernah rasa susah la katakannn....kena susah sket mula la gelabah.
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Tolong orang miskin lagi bagus la. Baru-baru aku ada bagi bantuan kat mangsa banjir. Orang-orang kampung la ni, tak banyak pon kerajaan bagi. Satu family RM200. Itu pon diorang punya suka, sampai siap cium tangan aku lagi. Syukur betul diorang. Aku yang tolong bagi duit je pon rasa puas je. Rasa cam aku dah contribute untuk kurangkan siket pening diorang. Agaknya tu la hikmah jadi orang yang kurang senang kan.... pandai bersyukur, komplen pon tak banyak. Entah laaa....

Thursday, December 11, 2008

What????


Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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I just found out that my job comes with a package. A scary one. By assuming this post, I am automatically appointed as the Chairman of the District Mosque!!!!!!
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Me???!!!! Azrul Sani bin Ibrahim????!!!! Chairman of the District Mosque????!!!!!Whatttt???!!!!!
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I'm soooo not ready for this job. I didn't sign up for this. I can't even perform Subuh on time and now I'm the chairman. Not funny...sooo not funny. The system is flawed. I demand that I be stripped off my chairmanship!!!!
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Ish...this is soo disconcerting, discombobulating and demoralizing. The truth is I'm scared. I'm not fit for this job. I wouldn't want to be the one who might tarnish the sanctity of the mosque, would I?
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Or maybe this is a way how God's telling me that He wants me to be a better Muslim. To take up this monstrous responsibility. Helllpp....

Congrats Aman Shah

I received a call at 7.30 am. I was driving to the office. It was a southern number. I wondered who could it be? Then I thought maybe it was one of my relatives from who wanted to know how are my parents doing in Mecca. So, reluctantly (coz I didn't have hands free) I answered. Cheh....it was my long lost friend Aman Shah.
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He sounded so excited and chirpy, considering it was only 7.30 am. He told me he got his promotion oredi. Obviously he was as happy as a dog. ahahahha....congrats Aman. After 5 repeats of PTK1 you totally deserved it. Persistent dude....persistent!! Dont forget to register for PTK3 ok. Goodluck!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

WTF???!!!!

Scene One
I went to Padang Polo recently to jog. As I was jogging, I saw something that really really irked me. A lady was walking her dog, not just walking ok, along the way, the dog would stop and did its business. WTF???!!!
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Scene Two
One day, I went to have breakfast at a coffee shop near my home. As I was entering the shop, I saw a couple. There was a basket on a chair next to them. In the basket, there was a dog. WTF????!!!!
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On both occasions, I just lost interest in whatever I was doing. Frustrated. Disappointed. Angry. Insulted.
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I think these people have problems living in society. They are not ignorance. But they are merely arrogance. They are idiots. They do not deserve to be in this country.
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As we all know, a public park and a coffee shop are meant for public. When it's a public area, there are norms that should be adhered to by all and sundry. By bringing a pet that you know will cause uneasy feelings among others are just plainly arrogant. Or should I say racist? Are they trying to send a message that they don't give a crap about others and all they need is their own kind?
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These are exactly the kind of attitudes that could turn a non-racist to a racist. A total disregard of social sensitivities and respect for others. Sure, this is a free country, but please be considerate. Don't be soooo busuk hati to others. And please don't tell me you do not know. That's so fu*king lame. Fu*k YOU!!!!
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I think I wont tolerate anymore. All this while, I believed in mutual respect. I tried my best to respect others. But it seems that some people just do not care. So why should I care? The scenes above are just the tip of the iceberg. There's more. But before this, my stand was, humans are not perfect, and we tend to make mistakes. But to do the same mistakes over and over again is just stupid and unacceptable.
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DAMN!!!!

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Bukit Antarabangsa

No words can describe the agony experienced by the victims of the Bukit Antarabangsa landslide. So I will not make any effort to console them as I feel that they are better off being left alone at the moment. Not now. Let them grieve first. Help them logistically, but don't psycho-analyze them. Not yet.
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I just hope that they will brace themselves as there's nothing more they could do. This is God's will. Nothing could have stopped it. Nothing.
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But I still believe that God showed some mercy by only allowing 5 fatalities. Imagine, 14 houses were destroyed at 4.00 am in the morning, and yet there were only 5 deaths. When I saw the footage on TV, my first thought was '14 rumah???!!!...4 pagi???!!!!...semua tgh tidur tuuu.... banyak la yang mati ni....'.
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Miracle???!!! I don't know. I do not have enough ilmu to discuss it. All I know, we all need to learn something from this. Hopefully, we do. Insya Allah....

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

How la?


I've been eating non stop since Hari Raya. Yup, it's that long. Now my body is ballooning. I could only smile when I saw my fat laden body in the mirror. Tensen ah. I think this is how my body retaliates after a month of fasting. ehehh... It's payback time, they say. I really need to put a stop on all this. Bersedialah lemak-lemak semua. Your honeymoon is over.
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The weather is not helping either. It's been raining almost everyday here in Ipoh. So I cant run. I really miss running. I think my sneakers merajuk oredi as I've been abandoning them for quite sometime now. All I do now is playing badminton once a week. Tu pon dalam 90 minutes je. It's just not enough lah.
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I think I want to start going to the gym la. But gym will cost me. Dunno la. It seems that gym is the best available solution at the moment. How la?

Another 10 sen


Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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It's another 10 sen slip on petrol and diesel prices. Yeayy!!!
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Alhamdulillah.... I think life should be able to go back to normal. Even though, goods prices are still high, but at least it's now better compared to the RM2.70 petrol price tag before. To me, that 10 sen cut would translate into RM25 saving. For a working class like me, that RM25 can at least buy my son's milk. Ok la tu kan.
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We should be thankful. Thankful to God and also the government. It's funny how humans work, when someone does something bad to them, they will scream to the top of their lungs and cry for justice. But when someone does something nice, they'll just keep quiet. C'est la vie....
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So people, stop your whining and start being thankful ok. Donate some money or something, whatever turns you on. Believe me, you'd feel better about yourself and your life too. Take care peeps.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

of being blunt

A friend of mine posted a note on her Facebook last week. It was about how she likes to say what's on her mind and sometimes being so blunt and eventually hurt someone else's feeling. ahahhaha....
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I've been knowing her for years now, and I admit that she sometimes offended me with her speak-my-mind style. But since we are friends and I'm also the hati kering kind of person, no damage done. Frens are meant to annoy each other whatttt....ehehehee....
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However, I feel that there is a very thin line between being perfectly honest/blunt and being rude. Unfortunately lah. I'd agree that we sometimes need to be blunt, especially to the very annoying people around us. In my line of work, I meet annoying people almost everyday. People who do not even know what they really want, but still want to blame someone else for their failures.
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Handling these kind of people is really taxing - mentally. Sometimes the devilish side of me just want to kick their asses out of the office, but somehow I managed to keep myself together.
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Before I go further, I just want to say that I'm not an expert of human psyche ok. Just want to share some experience :P <---disclaimer nih :)
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I feel that we need to train ourselves to be bluntly honest and yet still being polite and acceptable. Because there's no point of blurting what's in your head and yet not getting the message to the receiver rite? You accomplish nothing and maybe it'll cost you a friend. So mebbe you want to add elements of politeness and subtlety whenever you want to be blunt.
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For example, let say if I want to marah my son because he's playing with matches, I'd say
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Alif Hafi, jangan la main mancis tuuu.... dangerous tau.... nanti kalo terbakar alif kena masuk hospital nantii.... kena makan ubat & doctor inject alif dengan needle bigggg sangat..... takut tak?
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instead of
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bleh tak kalo ko jangan main mancis ni..... nak mampos ke apa haaa.... nanti kalo terbakar rumah ni sapa yang susah?..... aku jugak yg susah
Nampak tak. If it was me, I'd definitely be more comfortable with the first one. The message is very well received. In the second one, Alif might stop playing the matches, but not because of he understands the danger, but because he is scared of me.
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Tapi tu la kan. At the end of the day, we are just humans and we are not perfect. We are who we are, and it's difficult to change that. So if you ever offended someone, just go and apologize la....forgive & forget!


Al-Fatihah

Two of my frens lost their beloved fathers last Friday. It is such a great loss to the community as both of the arwahs had served the community well. I'd like to convey my deepest condolense to both of my frens.
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Although the word death invokes anxiety and sorrow, I found the news quite a relief. Dont get me wrong ok. The fact that they both left us on Friday really amazes me. As I was tought that anyone who dies on Friday will be spared the 'siksaan kubur'. So those who die on Fridays are the chosen one. It's not easy to be the chosen one though, you have to really devote yourself to God, follow his orders, be nice to others and so forth and so on.
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I hope if my time comes (hopefully not in the near future), it would be on Friday. Insyaallah.
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So now, lets sedekah the Al-Fatihah to both of the arwahs. Al-Fatihah....
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p/s: harimau mati meninggalkan belang, manusia mati meninggalkan nama

Monday, November 17, 2008

Nudists Wanted...Register Now!!!


Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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I think democracy in Malaysia has elevated by another notch lah. Recently an NGO by the name of Gerakan Reformis Rakyat Malaysia (Reformis) announced that they will organize a nude demostration in front of Selangor's SUK building in their effort to protest the state government's decision to increase the rental rate of Program Perumahan Rakyat (PPR) from RM124 to RM250 per month. Read here
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GILA!
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Because of this, everybody in Selangor is now worried of the Nudists' Attack!!!. Ahahha. Malaysia is so colorful, dont you think??!!!
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For those who do not have an inkling what PPR is. It is a government program to help the poor rakyats to have their own houses. They can buy it at a minimum cost or just rent it. At least that is what happening in Perak. I believe, the program is more or less the same lah. The target is still those hard core poor rakyats. But if I'm wrong. I sincerely apologize.
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To Reformis. I understand that your niat is very true and honorable. You want to help the needy. I support you 110%. After all, the new Pakatan Rakyat government's mantra 'Negeri/Negara Berkebajikan' says it all. They were suppose to care for the poor. But I think maybe since they are unable to collect money from water anymore, they resorted to squeeze some money out of these poor people. Bravo to Selangor. Good management strategy.
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So now Reformis is angry. When they are angry they will take off their clothes whilst singing Nelly's Hot in Here....'it's getting hot in here...so take off all your clothes...'
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But bro, THE MEANS DO NOT JUSTIFY THE END ok. Are stupid your or something? Did your mother drop you when you were baby? What's wrong with your noggin man???!!!!
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Do you realize that you have lost the battle before you even started it. Because now, people are talking about the naked protest and not the real issue, which is the need to help the poor. At the end of the day, nobody wins. No problems solved. And this is all because of you, Reformis.
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I wonder what's their real agenda here exactly. Do they really want to fight for the poor or they just want cheap publicity while satisfying their rotten perverted desire. If they really want to proceed with this, they'd better get the likes of Heidi Klum and Halle Berry to join mannn. It'll look much much more desireable compared to the sight of hundreds of ugly naked men chanting and jumping up and down in front of the Selanor SUK. I cannot even imagine it.
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There's always a way to help people. It is very encouraging indeed to have NGOs like Reformis as it balances the Government's decisions with their views and propositions. But do it in an acceptable society manner. In this case, Malaysians do not protest in nude. There has never been one, and hopefully it never will. The last ime I checked, this is still an Islamic Country ok. Apa sudah tukar ka?
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The fact that the President of Reformis is also a Muslim disgusts me even further. Does he have any sense at all? Why must he goes for the extreme when there are still many civilized ways available? I'd suggest he seeks help for himself first before attending to others' problems.
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Ok la. Tu je la kot. My 2 cents for today. See ya!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Bangsa Malaysia



PLEASE CHECK THIS ARTICLE OUT BY BLOGGER DEMI NEGARA. ARTICULATELY SUPERB. AN EYE-OPENER-SLAP-IN-THE-FACE KINDA ARTICLE. ALL MALAYSIANS SHOULD READ THIS ARTICLE. I JUST WISH I HAD BETTER VOCABULARY TO DESCRIBE THIS ARTICLE.

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OH YE, IT WOULD BE BETTER IF YOU PRINT IT OUT COZ IT'S REALLY REALLY REALLY LONG. BACA KAT UMAH LA TAK GANGGU OFFICE HOUR :)

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TO MR. DEMI NEGARA, I SALUTE YOU SIR!!


Tuesday, November 11, 2008

In NST Yesterday

Got this article from yesterday's NST. Interesting to read and to ponder too. The article is by Dr. Chandra Muzaffar. I think he is one of the best Political Scientist in this country. I been to a lot of seminars conducted by many Political Scientists. But so far, I respected Dr. Chandra the most. He's always so objective and he answers with neutrality. Never pick sides. So if you have the time. You may want to read this.
Obama and malaysian
minorities: Too sweeping a comparison
By : DR CHANDRA MUZAFFAR, Kuala
Lumpur
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IN the wake of Barack Obama's electoral triumph in the United States, some Malaysian politicians, non-governmental organisation activists, newspaper columnists and members of the public have made utterly shallow and superficial comments about the significance of his victory to minorities and ethnic politics in Malaysia.
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The US' majority-minority dichotomy has very little relevance to our country. Though a member of the African-American minority, which is about 12 per cent of the US population, Obama subscribes to Christianity, the religion of the white majority.His mother tongue -- English -- is the mother tongue of the majority community. His culture is, to all intents and purposes, indistinguishable from the culture of the majority.Like most other African- Americans, and indeed most of the other minorities such as the Latinos and Asians, Obama has been absorbed and assimilated into what is sometimes described as mainstream "White Anglo-Saxon Protestant" (WASP) culture.
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However, for African-Americans, in particular, their total assimilation was hampered and hindered by the racial barrier of colour. It was the colour bar with all its historical (slavery) and sociological (lower economic echelon) implications that underscored their minority status.
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Compare their minority status to the position of the Chinese and Indian Malaysian minorities. Most Chinese and Indian Malaysians are non-Muslims and have no affiliation whatsoever to Islam, the religion of the majority Malay community. The Malay language is not their mother tongue. In fact, the overwhelming majority of the Chinese community, in particular, remains deeply attached to its own mother tongue. More than 90 per cent of Chinese parents send their children to Chinese primary schools.
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For the most part, Chinese and Indian cultures have preserved and perpetuated their distinct identities.Chinese and Indian elites, whether in government or with the opposition, have always been opposed to any attempt to absorb their communities into the cultural ethos of the majority community. Neither has the government been inclined towards assimilation as a cultural policy.
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By and large, it is the path of integration that the government has chosen, which accommodates cultural diversity and seeks to promote unity by emphasising the primacy of the nation's lingua franca. The Chinese and Indian communities prefer integration to assimilation.Since this is their preference, they should not expect an assimilated "Obama" to emerge from their ranks.
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To explain this in more concrete terms, one should perhaps try to visualise the life story of an Obama equivalent in Malaysia. His father would have come from a Buddhist, or Hindu or Christian family outside Malaysia, married a Malay-Muslim woman from say Kedah or Kelantan, and produced an offspring who would have spoken Bahasa Malaysia as his mother tongue, studied in a Malay-medium school, graduated from a Malay-medium university, and would have been thoroughly assimilated into Malay culture and society. How could one regard such a person as the poster-boy of the Chinese or Indian minority in this country?
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This illustrates the danger of making simplistic comparisons between minorities in two totally different situations without any understanding of their respective milieus.Rather than indulge in such rhetoric which invariably has a communal edge to it, our politicians and media commentators should help to promote our Bahasa Malaysia-based primary school as the school of first choice so that young Malaysians will, at least, have the opportunity to interact with one another during the most impressionable stage of their lives.
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Of course, interaction alone will not enhance national unity if we are not just and fair to everyone, regardless of their cultural or religious affiliation.

PTK3

Assalamualaikum & Goodday

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This post is recommended for gomen servants only. Others are also welcomed to read. Tapi takut korang busan la plak kannnn. Tapi sebenarnya tak busan pon :)




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Just got back from Competency Level Assesment 3 (TK3). For those who are not in the government, TK3 is an assessment we gomen servants have to pass before being promoted. Lebih kurang la. Maleh aku terang panjang-panjang :)
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Anyways, to my frens who are taking TK3 in December, I have a reminder : BE PREPARED
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It's hard for me to say whether it's easy or hard. I think it's a combination of both. Ok now, let me give you a sneak preview of what you gonna go thru in December.
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The first 2 days you'll have to endure a series of ceramahs. The lecturers were all ok except for one guy. We unanimously rated him at 1 or 2 (the scale is from 1 to 7 and 1 being the worst). He was badddd. Who? I guess you'll never know because the secretariats pon were shocked when they saw the assessment. ehhehehe
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From Day3 to Day6, there will be:
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  • Pengucapan Awam (10 min)
  • Public Speaking (10 min)
  • Individual Presentation (10 min + 5 min Q&A)
  • Group Presentation (20 min + 5 min Q&A)
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Day7 is revision day. Yeah riteeeee.....revision la sangatttttt
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Day8 is the Written Exam from Hellllll. It was quite hard (at least for me). There are 21 questions. But you will have to answer only 5. I managed to answer all 5. But I doubt my answers were perfect. The faci told us to try to answer in at least 4 pages for each question. But it is hard to goreng that much in 3 hours ok. Unless, if you oredi know the answer to all the questions then it's ok. But if you need time to think and structure your answer, you can kiss your 4 page answer goodbye :). The most important thing is to answer all 5.
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Some more, there are no notes ok. They did give us the ceramah slides, but it didnt help at all. So to you guys yg nak amik in December. Please read one or two books as suggested in JPA punye website tuh. I think it'll help a lot. If you ask me, I'll choose to read on Leadership, Integrity & Communication Skills. Your choice la dude.
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For the speeches, make sure you prepare something mature ok. There will be 21 topics for you to choose. Choose wisely. If you want the list of the topics. Email me personally. ehehhehe...nothing's free my fren. The same goes to the individual & group presentation. Use management tools ok ie SWOT, McKinsey 7s etc etc. Kalo tak nanti kena sound dengan panel. The typical comments:
Actually You all ni ada potensi. Tapi masih raw
lagi. Kurang mature. You all dah M48 tau. So please act like
one. Jangan pakai mentaliti M41/44 lagi masa present.
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You all ni presentation ada isi. Tapi analisis
kurang la. You all tak baca buku niiii....
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In a way, aku agree jugak dengan panel. We are still immature as far as experience is concerned. And after TK3 ni, I realized that M48 ni bukan main2 beb. Our decision will affect the country tau. So kalo kena tiaw dengan panel tu terima je la. We may feel that they are envy of us, but I could sense they actually care for us, the service and the country....ehehehhe....sket poyo disituuu
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So anyways, goodluck untuk korang. Aku ni yang sibuk bagi tips ni pon tak tentu lepas ke tak lagi. So tolong la doa2kan ye.



Thursday, October 23, 2008

I feel guilty


On Teusday, I went to a Forum held by Malaysia Institute of Integrity. The forum itself was boring. Luckily it only lasted till noon.
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Anyways, the participants were a lot. Saw some of my batchmates there. But I didn't say hi to them. I was actually being careful and had my own reasons. First of all, I'm not close at all with them, and if I'm not mistaken we have never spoken to each other before. Second of all, I'm afraid that they will not remember me :P It's gonna be awkward ok. I know their names, but I dont think they could remember mine.
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During the PTD course, there were 283 of us. We were divided into four 'Sidangs' - A,B,C & D. I was in the coolest Sidang which is Sidang C (Muzie & Kirk, if you are reading this, Sidang D pon best gak) ehehehh... oh ye..the batchmates I met were in Sidangs A&B
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Sidang A&B would usually do things together and so did C&D. That was the arrangement. So those from these 2 different groups would rarely see each other. There were gaps. I myself pretty much kept my activities within my circle of close friends. I was low profile. Easy putting it, I wasn't on the glamour list :)
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Even though I did perform on stage, it would usually be in group. I dunno why, I think I was shy then. Well, actually, I didn't want to put myself in the limelight because I didn't want to do volunteer work. Kalo tak nanti kena jadi AJK tu la AJK ni la. Penat ooiiii....
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So now I'm feeling guilty. Nanti diorang kata aku sombong la plak kan. Tapi takpe la. As I said, I was just trying to avoid the awkward feeling because I'm pretty pretty sure they dont know my name or at least have forgotten it.
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But still, next time kalo aku jumpa member batch aku, aku akan tegur gak la. Kalo tak ingat nama bagitau la kan. Apa susah. Ahh...balik umah lagi baik la...chow peeps.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Sep Duit Aku




Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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I've started my new job. So far, everything has been smooth. Need to recap some of the things I did before. I think I need a couple of months before I could go full swing. Still not happy though, I wish I could turn things to go my way. Hmmm...
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Oh ye....lupa nak bagitau, this new job comes with an Official Resident. I'm suppose to live there. But no way in hell I'm gonna stay here. I'm a city person....ehehehh
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I'd rather commute from Ipoh everyday. It's just 31 km after all. The problem is....since it's an official resident, the gomen will still cut half of my housing allowance & COLA whether I live there or not. I lose both ways :P It's a lot of money ok. RM450 tuuuuu....can cover my monthly fuel expense.
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But I think God must have been listening to my whining before, He gave me some relief. Alhamdulillah....
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How? Apparently, the house was burglarized during the last fasting month. The window panels and sliding doors were all taken away. The glasses were all shattered. The wiring all gone. Senang cakap la, the house was rampaged and it is not safe to live there anymore.
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Now, because of this, I have a reason not to live there. Yeayyy....selamat RM450!!!! See, God is Most Merciful. Believe in Him. And Insya Allah you'll be fine.
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Here are some pics of the house:

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

18 years ago...


Got this pic from my ex schoolmate. A picture of my rugby team. Yeah...I played rugby ok. Dont't be puzzled :) As any other rugby team, we too have a team nickname. We are the Al-Ankabooot. It's Arabic which means spider. Dunno why they picked this name. But then, it sounded cool though. eheheh....
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This was taken like 18 years ago. We were in Form 1 then. Semua innocent lagi masa nih. Angelic even...ahahahhaha. You guys might be wondering why we were sporting songkok right? Well, sekolah agama maaa....F1 & F2 students must wear songkok or kopiah at anytime of the day except when you play games or go to the toilet.
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Can you spot which is me? Second row. Next to the guy in the center. Yup me is the one with the gold rimmed glasses. Aahahha. Geeky huh? Anyways, the one in the center is the coach, he's actually our senior.
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This team didn't last long. Me and majority of others stopped playing when we were in F2. Apparently the school management didn't think that sport is important to the students. Sheesh....camne la nak maju sukan kat Malaysia nih.

C'Est La Vie


I'd like to convey my deepest condolence to a close friend of mine who had a miscarriage recently. I really hope that she and her husband will go through this heartbreaking episode with ease. I know my words are futile and fruitless but always remember that we only have the power to plan, but at the end of the day it is Him who decides. Be strong.
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Sincerely, Azrul Sani & Family

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Ah Politicians

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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All this while, I've been refraining myself from writing anything on politics. But this time, I just cannot tahan anymore. I need to voice out the uneasiness I've been having in my mind and chest. The issue that has been bothering me is the AZAN issue in Selangor.
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Before going further, I'd better give the background of the issue first. I know most of you dah tau pasal issue. Tapi mana la tau kalo-kalo ada yang tatau kan. So, recently there have been a movement calling for AZAN to be aired internally. Reason being, not to disturb other members of community.
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This movement is supported by a certain YB from the Selangor State Government. The YB even went to a certain surau before dusk to wait for the AZAN. After the AZAN, he/she had a chat with the surau people to find out whether their could air the AZAN internally or at least tone down the volume. His/Her reason was other people are still sleeping and the AZAN will disturb them. Waaaa.....so altruistic la this YB eh. Oh yeah, FYI, the surau is located in a 90% muslim community. Had a friend of mine in Selangor to verify this :)
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To me, the purpose of the AZAN is to summon the Muslims to the suraus and mosques. So, it is designed to wake people up! If it is aired internally or in a softer tone, wouldn't it be defeating the purpose of the AZAN. Plus the AZAN would only last 4-5 minutes!! And it's not 3 in the morning ok, it's around 6 am!!! It's time to wake up anyway.
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Frankly, as a Muslim, I'm insulted. I'm angry. I am disgusted by the YB's action. I also sometimes do not approve some of the other religions' activities. But did I stop them? Nooo...why? Because my religion taught me to be nice to others. My religion taught me to respect and tolerate. My religion taught me to live in peace and harmony with others regardless of their beliefs.
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Come on la. We've been living together since before Merdeka. We respected each other's culture and beliefs. We tolerate, we give and we take. And now this happened. I just don't understand the motive. This is issue has never been raised before. Why must it be raised now? Why must we instill prejudice among our citizens? Why jeopardize the already fragile unity that we have?
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Religion is a very sensitive issue. So don't go near it. Do not politicize it. Be smart, not a smart ass. We hate smart asses.
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Allah is Great!!!


Monday, October 13, 2008

Happy Birthday Alif Hafi

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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Alif Hafi is 4 years old today. How time flies eh? I can still remember when I first cuddled him in my arms. He was so small and fragile, I couldn't let him go - ekceli I didn't know how to put him back in his cot, I was scared of dropping him :) Err....Nurse...tolong saya kejap.
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Today he's four oredi. And he wants PSP for his birthday!!!!. That's not gonna happen kiddo!! At least not now.
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I told him I'll buy the PSP if he got straight As in his coming exam. If not sorry la. Itu pon kira bagus la tau. Aku dulu nak dapat Game & Watch pon sket punye seksa. Hehehh...budak2 zaman sekarang....
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Anyways, Happy Birthday Alif. Abah loves you sooo much!!!!
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p/s: layan PS2 lagi bagus


Friday, October 10, 2008

Oopppsss

I felt thirsty. So I went to the pantry. I took a glass from the shelf and drank 2 glasses of water. Washed the glass and then stepped out of the pantry.
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The minute I stepped off the threshold only I realized that :
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I WAS DRINKING TAP WATER!!!!
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Camne tuh?...
I guess I have too many things in my head at the moment :)

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Saya Yang Menurut Perintah

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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My service so far :
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Feb 2004
Assistant Director (Procurement)
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May 2005
Assistant Director (Analysis)

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Jan 2007
Assistant District Officer (Development)

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June 2007
Special Officer to the MB

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June 2008
State Assistant Financial Officer (Revenue)

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By this time next week, I'll be the Chief Assistant District Officer and I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!!!
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It's not that I'm afraid of the commitment, I'm all game for it. It's just that I dont like working in the district. I'm scared that I'm not going to be happy and will end up to be the likes of people who hate their jobs and stuck with it. Morale is at rock bottom. DAMN.
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They say life is about making choices. I wish it could be that simple la. See, they say when you wake up in the morning you have two choices: happy day or crappy day. Obviously, any sane man will choose happy right? But people tend to forget that the choice you made is not the only decision you need to make for the day.
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Ok. Let say when you got to work, your boss calls you and he/she wants you to do something unethical or something that is totally against your principle. He/she gives you you the ultimatum, do it or pack your things. So now you get to choose. Losing the job or losing your integrity.
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ehehehh....it's not so fun anymore isn't it? The fact is, either way, your decision will not make you happy. So does this mean your earlier decision (to be happy) was wrong? Tough one huh?
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Life is about making choices. True enough. But the person who came up with this cliche failed to address further. The choices are not always up to you. It is limited by your surroundings and that is not something you can control. It is the beauty of life :)
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But that does mean that you cannot be happy. You gotta fight for it. Suck it up. No pain no gain. And try to make it as simple as you could. How do you define simplicity? It's up to you. I have my own problems. ahahahh....
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Anyways, back to me being freaked out. I think for the time being, I just have to suck it up, ya know. See how things go. One thing for sure, I want to be happy. I want my family to be happy. And if I sense I cannot achieve that, I'll definitely do something.
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I chose to be happy not for a day, but for the whole of my life :) Pray for me peeps!!

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Funny Email

Hello peeps!!
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I'm still not in the mood to really pour the thoughts in mind. Just waiting for the right mood. Hehehh....

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In the meantime, enjoy this joke I got from MsPSM. Funny ah :)
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Church Bells
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On hearing that her elderly grandfather had just passed away, Katie went straight to her grandparent's house to visit her 95 year old grandmother and comfort her.
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When she asked how her grandfather had died, her grandmother replied, "He had a heart attack while we were making love on Sunday morning."
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Horrified, Katie told her grandmother that 2 people nearly 100 years old having sex would surely be asking for trouble.
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"Oh no, my dear, " replied granny. "Many years ago, realizing our advanced age, we figured out the best time to do it was when the church bells would start to ring. It was just the right rhythm. Nice and slow and even. Nothing too strenuous, simply in on the Ding and out on the Dong."
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She paused, wiped away a tear and then continued, "And if that damned ice cream truck hadn't come along, he'd still be alive today!

So to all ice cream sellers, be careful ok. You might be a killer without you knowing it. Have a good day y'all!!