I feel guilty

On Teusday, I went to a Forum held by Malaysia Institute of Integrity. The forum itself was boring. Luckily it only lasted till noon.

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Anyways, the participants were a lot. Saw some of my batchmates there. But I didn't say hi to them. I was actually being careful and had my own reasons. First of all, I'm not close at all with them, and if I'm not mistaken we have never spoken to each other before. Second of all, I'm afraid that they will not remember me :P It's gonna be awkward ok. I know their names, but I dont think they could remember mine.

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During the PTD course, there were 283 of us. We were divided into four 'Sidangs' - A,B,C & D. I was in the coolest Sidang which is Sidang C (Muzie & Kirk, if you are reading this, Sidang D pon best gak) ehehehh... oh ye..the batchmates I met were in Sidangs A&B

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Sidang A&B would usually do things together and so did C&D. That was the arrangement. So those from these 2 different groups would rarely see each other. There were gaps. I myself pretty much kept my activities within my circle of close friends. I was low profile. Easy putting it, I wasn't on the glamour list :)

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Even though I did perform on stage, it would usually be in group. I dunno why, I think I was shy then. Well, actually, I didn't want to put myself in the limelight because I didn't want to do volunteer work. Kalo tak nanti kena jadi AJK tu la AJK ni la. Penat ooiiii....

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So now I'm feeling guilty. Nanti diorang kata aku sombong la plak kan. Tapi takpe la. As I said, I was just trying to avoid the awkward feeling because I'm pretty pretty sure they dont know my name or at least have forgotten it.

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But still, next time kalo aku jumpa member batch aku, aku akan tegur gak la. Kalo tak ingat nama bagitau la kan. Apa susah. Ahh...balik umah lagi baik la...chow peeps.

Sep Duit Aku

Assalamualaikum & Goodday

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I've started my new job. So far, everything has been smooth. Need to recap some of the things I did before. I think I need a couple of months before I could go full swing. Still not happy though, I wish I could turn things to go my way. Hmmm...
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Oh ye....lupa nak bagitau, this new job comes with an Official Resident. I'm suppose to live there. But no way in hell I'm gonna stay here. I'm a city person....ehehehh

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I'd rather commute from Ipoh everyday. It's just 31 km after all. The problem is....since it's an official resident, the gomen will still cut half of my housing allowance & COLA whether I live there or not. I lose both ways :P It's a lot of money ok. RM450 tuuuuu....can cover my monthly fuel expense.

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But I think God must have been listening to my whining before, He gave me some relief. Alhamdulillah....

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How? Apparently, the house was burglarized during the last fasting month. The window panels and sliding doors were all taken away. The glasses were all shattered. The wiring all gone. Senang cakap la, the house was rampaged and it is not safe to live there anymore.

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Now, because of this, I have a reason not to live there. Yeayyy....selamat RM450!!!! See, God is Most Merciful. Believe in Him. And Insya Allah you'll be fine.

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Here are some pics of the house:

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18 years ago...

Got this pic from my ex schoolmate. A picture of my rugby team. Yeah...I played rugby ok. Dont't be puzzled :) As any other rugby team, we too have a team nickname. We are the Al-Ankabooot. It's Arabic which means spider. Dunno why they picked this name. But then, it sounded cool though. eheheh....
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This was taken like 18 years ago. We were in Form 1 then. Semua innocent lagi masa nih. Angelic even...ahahahhaha. You guys might be wondering why we were sporting songkok right? Well, sekolah agama maaa....F1 & F2 students must wear songkok or kopiah at anytime of the day except when you play games or go to the toilet.
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Can you spot which is me? Second row. Next to the guy in the center. Yup me is the one with the gold rimmed glasses. Aahahha. Geeky huh? Anyways, the one in the center is the coach, he's actually our senior.
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This team didn't last long. Me and majority of others stopped playing when we were in F2. Apparently the school management didn't think that sport is important to the students. Sheesh....camne la nak maju sukan kat Malaysia nih.

C'Est La Vie

I'd like to convey my deepest condolence to a close friend of mine who had a miscarriage recently. I really hope that she and her husband will go through this heartbreaking episode with ease. I know my words are futile and fruitless but always remember that we only have the power to plan, but at the end of the day it is Him who decides. Be strong.
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Sincerely, Azrul Sani & Family

Ah Politicians

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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All this while, I've been refraining myself from writing anything on politics. But this time, I just cannot tahan anymore. I need to voice out the uneasiness I've been having in my mind and chest. The issue that has been bothering me is the AZAN issue in Selangor.
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Before going further, I'd better give the background of the issue first. I know most of you dah tau pasal issue. Tapi mana la tau kalo-kalo ada yang tatau kan. So, recently there have been a movement calling for AZAN to be aired internally. Reason being, not to disturb other members of community.
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This movement is supported by a certain YB from the Selangor State Government. The YB even went to a certain surau before dusk to wait for the AZAN. After the AZAN, he/she had a chat with the surau people to find out whether their could air the AZAN internally or at least tone down the volume. His/Her reason was other people are still sleeping and the AZAN will disturb them. Waaaa.....so altruistic la this YB eh. Oh yeah, FYI, the surau is located in a 90% muslim community. Had a friend of mine in Selangor to verify this :)
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To me, the purpose of the AZAN is to summon the Muslims to the suraus and mosques. So, it is designed to wake people up! If it is aired internally or in a softer tone, wouldn't it be defeating the purpose of the AZAN. Plus the AZAN would only last 4-5 minutes!! And it's not 3 in the morning ok, it's around 6 am!!! It's time to wake up anyway.
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Frankly, as a Muslim, I'm insulted. I'm angry. I am disgusted by the YB's action. I also sometimes do not approve some of the other religions' activities. But did I stop them? Nooo...why? Because my religion taught me to be nice to others. My religion taught me to respect and tolerate. My religion taught me to live in peace and harmony with others regardless of their beliefs.
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Come on la. We've been living together since before Merdeka. We respected each other's culture and beliefs. We tolerate, we give and we take. And now this happened. I just don't understand the motive. This is issue has never been raised before. Why must it be raised now? Why must we instill prejudice among our citizens? Why jeopardize the already fragile unity that we have?
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Religion is a very sensitive issue. So don't go near it. Do not politicize it. Be smart, not a smart ass. We hate smart asses.
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Allah is Great!!!

Happy Birthday Alif Hafi

Assalamualaikum & Goodday
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Alif Hafi is 4 years old today. How time flies eh? I can still remember when I first cuddled him in my arms. He was so small and fragile, I couldn't let him go - ekceli I didn't know how to put him back in his cot, I was scared of dropping him :) Err....Nurse...tolong saya kejap.
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Today he's four oredi. And he wants PSP for his birthday!!!!. That's not gonna happen kiddo!! At least not now.
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I told him I'll buy the PSP if he got straight As in his coming exam. If not sorry la. Itu pon kira bagus la tau. Aku dulu nak dapat Game & Watch pon sket punye seksa. Hehehh...budak2 zaman sekarang....
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Anyways, Happy Birthday Alif. Abah loves you sooo much!!!!
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p/s: layan PS2 lagi bagus

Oopppsss

I felt thirsty. So I went to the pantry. I took a glass from the shelf and drank 2 glasses of water. Washed the glass and then stepped out of the pantry.
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The minute I stepped off the threshold only I realized that :
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I WAS DRINKING TAP WATER!!!!

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Camne tuh?...
I guess I have too many things in my head at the moment :)

Saya Yang Menurut Perintah

Assalamualaikum & Goodday

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My service so far :
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Feb 2004
Assistant Director (Procurement)
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May 2005
Assistant Director (Analysis)
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Jan 2007
Assistant District Officer (Development)
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June 2007
Special Officer to the MB
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June 2008
State Assistant Financial Officer (Revenue)
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By this time next week, I'll be the Chief Assistant District Officer and I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!!!
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It's not that I'm afraid of the commitment, I'm all game for it. It's just that I dont like working in the district. I'm scared that I'm not going to be happy and will end up to be the likes of people who hate their jobs and stuck with it. Morale is at rock bottom. DAMN.
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They say life is about making choices. I wish it could be that simple la. See, they say when you wake up in the morning you have two choices: happy day or crappy day. Obviously, any sane man will choose happy right? But people tend to forget that the choice you made is not the only decision you need to make for the day.
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Ok. Let say when you got to work, your boss calls you and he/she wants you to do something unethical or something that is totally against your principle. He/she gives you you the ultimatum, do it or pack your things. So now you get to choose. Losing the job or losing your integrity.
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ehehehh....it's not so fun anymore isn't it? The fact is, either way, your decision will not make you happy. So does this mean your earlier decision (to be happy) was wrong? Tough one huh?
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Life is about making choices. True enough. But the person who came up with this cliche failed to address further. The choices are not always up to you. It is limited by your surroundings and that is not something you can control. It is the beauty of life :)
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But that does mean that you cannot be happy. You gotta fight for it. Suck it up. No pain no gain. And try to make it as simple as you could. How do you define simplicity? It's up to you. I have my own problems. ahahahh....
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Anyways, back to me being freaked out. I think for the time being, I just have to suck it up, ya know. See how things go. One thing for sure, I want to be happy. I want my family to be happy. And if I sense I cannot achieve that, I'll definitely do something.
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I chose to be happy not for a day, but for the whole of my life :) Pray for me peeps!!

Funny Email

Hello peeps!!
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I'm still not in the mood to really pour the thoughts in mind. Just waiting for the right mood. Hehehh....
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In the meantime, enjoy this joke I got from MsPSM. Funny ah :)
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Church Bells
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On hearing that her elderly grandfather had just passed away, Katie went straight to her grandparent's house to visit her 95 year old grandmother and comfort her.
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When she asked how her grandfather had died, her grandmother replied, "He had a heart attack while we were making love on Sunday morning."
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Horrified, Katie told her grandmother that 2 people nearly 100 years old having sex would surely be asking for trouble.
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"Oh no, my dear, " replied granny. "Many years ago, realizing our advanced age, we figured out the best time to do it was when the church bells would start to ring. It was just the right rhythm. Nice and slow and even. Nothing too strenuous, simply in on the Ding and out on the Dong."
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She paused, wiped away a tear and then continued, "And if that damned ice cream truck hadn't come along, he'd still be alive today!

So to all ice cream sellers, be careful ok. You might be a killer without you knowing it. Have a good day y'all!!

First Day@Work

Ya Allahhhh.....
Malasnyeeeeeeeeee......

That was the first tot of the day when I woke up.....Not so encouraging eh. But I cannot help myself from being sluggish and crappy. It's been more than a week since I work. So please cut me some slack.
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I want to talk about Raya, but I guess this year's celebration was more or less similar like last year. So me thinks me don't want to write about Raya. Ok la, a bit can la. Safe to say that my Raya was great and everybody is happy. Abah still gives me duit raya :)
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Ok la. I actually have no idea at the moment. ehehehh. Just the urge to write :) So now I'm gonna sign off. Be back soon.