Impulse

Assalamualaikum & Goodday

Most of the time, decisions are formulated based on the info we have in front of us. Usually it is in the form of document. But sometimes the documented info is just not there.

In this case, you then, have to rely on explanation given to you by another person. So, your decision is basically driven by your own instinct. In dealing with people, like my job now, this is usually the case.

Just now, while i was minding my own business struggling to finish my work. There was a knock on my door "Encik Azrul, ada makcik ni nak jumpa encik" - "ok"

The makcik came in, her first question was "Sibuk ke?"

"Biasala cik, ada le sket2" "Ada apa hal makcik?"

"Saya ni ada masalah peribadi?"

"ok, apa dia tu?" (apa pulak la ni)

"saya putus duit, suami saya outstation, dia keje bawak lori, minggu depan baru gaji dia masuk, jadi boleh ke bagi makcik RM50, sampai minggu depan je, nanti bagi la balik"..... "Kalo tak caya tengok buku bank ni"

Aku blur kejap. I reached for the bank book, opened it, and stared. Then i realized that i didnt understand my own action. What on earth was i doing?

"Err....saya tak paham la cik, apa makcik cakap tadi?"

She went to explain the same thing again.

"Mmmm....makcik dah pegi ke pejabat YB ADUN ke?"

"Dah banyak kali dah!!!" she replied in disgust. Not sure whether with me or the YB.

I decided to size her up further. "Bila makcik pegi ye?"

"Dah banyak kali dah!!!" same tone same expression

"Bila tu cik, hari nih ade pegi?"

"Takde"

"Minggu ni ada pegi?" i pressed on

"Takde lagi le" now she seemed a little bit worried.

I know why. She was lying to me. She couldnt even look me in the eyes.

At this point, my instinct tells me that she was lying . She didnt seem to be so desparate. She didnt even have the courtesy to introduce herself to me. I was puzzled.

At last i decided that she couldnt be trusted. So aku pon taichi la lebih kurang. Bersilat jugak la. I told her that the office takde peruntukan untuk bagi pada orang ramai (which is true, pejabat daerah mana la ada duit) . Suggested that she would be better off if she went to see the YB.

Last-last dia pon mengalah la. Dia kata pastu dia nak pegi pejabat YB plak.

I dunno la. I hope it was the right decision. Aku sebnarnya tau dia nak pinjam duit aku. Tapi aku memang betul-betul confident dia tipu. Anyways, she's a stranger. And i didnt want to set a precedent. Kalo takde duit pg mintak kat pejabat daerah. Mati ooiiii....

Lagipon watpe nak tolong orang kalo tak ikhlas ye dak. Tak dapat apa pon. Dah la tak ikhlas, silap2 kena tipu lagi. So daripada aku menyesal baik la aku tak bagi duit tuh.

I always believe that I should myself first before helping others...hehh...macam dalam kapalterbang plak eh. So i have no regrets. Sori la makcik. Better luck next time.